didnt even mention in my entry yesterday that it was the national day, and that the 1st day of ramadhan is here (today). well i did say i was stressed. my sis tells me i should get a year off and go somewhere (wahhh..i wish i could go do that!!)
so thank God for the long weekend and that i got at least 3 of the 4 days off. and i think i've made the right decision to not do anything but to just simply come up to kl to be with my family, altho sis and her kiddos arent around, they've moved to sarawak :( but it's good to spend time shopping with ma and have a chat with my favourite brother (he is the only brother btw ;)), and watch the us open with all of them (yup, even ma is a tennis fan)... nuthin out of the usual at all, this is usually what i do when i come back home here and dont have plans with friends anyway. but this time, i feel like i really need this "stable" environment, even if it's just for 3 days, before i can go back and face the madness and pressure at work, the busy calls, and the coming exam (ugh!) in november...
let's not even go there..
Monday, September 01, 2008
Sunday, August 31, 2008
to whine, to shine..?
it has been a stressful month or so at work. the ward and nursery is forever full lately, with sick babies and kids... and the ever demanding parents! they're just getting on my nerves. i mean, it's one thing if you're being worried/concerned for your kid, but it's a whole different thang when it's pure paranoia thinking doctors are there to purposely hurt your kid for fun.
i've blogged about this before but arrrrggghhh.. everyday is becoming a struggle now for me, to get my bum off the bed every morning and drag myself to work to face these parents. parents who decide to bring their kid in at 2am because the kid's been havin' cough and cold past few days, and havent been able to sleep tonight, (thus keeping the parents up as well).. and then by the time the docs do the rounds at 8am, they're already asking to go home. so i tell them "well, u just came in 5 hours ago..why not stay another night so we can observe your kid a bit more?", and when they still insist, giving us 101 reasons as to why it's difficult for them to stay on, i had no choice but to let them go (usually at their own risk (AOR) if they insist), only to have them come back two days later, cuz the kid's still sick. well, d-uh!
some of them who had insisted the earlier discharge and signed the AOR, upon seeing another doctor on re-admission, even have the nerve to say "actually the day my kid was discharged, he/she was still not that well yet but the doctor still discharged him/her anyway" !!!
aiyoh..sabar jelah..
so why do i still drag my butt to work everyday? sounds corny..but for the innocent little patients of course. they dont get to choose their parents, and some are just unlucky to get stupid ones. so screw those parents, i'm there to help the kids.. but then i dont know how long i can hold on..
patients like cute lil JK here, who has apalstic anaemia, is forever playful when she's relatively well, and refuses to stay isolated in her room.. she likes to tease me, but decides to play shy when i aimed for a shot of her picture. she btw, has great support from her parents and extended family.. and they've always been cooperative with us as well. just to point out that there are exceptions of course.
i've blogged about this before but arrrrggghhh.. everyday is becoming a struggle now for me, to get my bum off the bed every morning and drag myself to work to face these parents. parents who decide to bring their kid in at 2am because the kid's been havin' cough and cold past few days, and havent been able to sleep tonight, (thus keeping the parents up as well).. and then by the time the docs do the rounds at 8am, they're already asking to go home. so i tell them "well, u just came in 5 hours ago..why not stay another night so we can observe your kid a bit more?", and when they still insist, giving us 101 reasons as to why it's difficult for them to stay on, i had no choice but to let them go (usually at their own risk (AOR) if they insist), only to have them come back two days later, cuz the kid's still sick. well, d-uh!
some of them who had insisted the earlier discharge and signed the AOR, upon seeing another doctor on re-admission, even have the nerve to say "actually the day my kid was discharged, he/she was still not that well yet but the doctor still discharged him/her anyway" !!!
aiyoh..sabar jelah..
so why do i still drag my butt to work everyday? sounds corny..but for the innocent little patients of course. they dont get to choose their parents, and some are just unlucky to get stupid ones. so screw those parents, i'm there to help the kids.. but then i dont know how long i can hold on..
patients like cute lil JK here, who has apalstic anaemia, is forever playful when she's relatively well, and refuses to stay isolated in her room.. she likes to tease me, but decides to play shy when i aimed for a shot of her picture. she btw, has great support from her parents and extended family.. and they've always been cooperative with us as well. just to point out that there are exceptions of course.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
holy-olympics!2
hya.. what a way to lose.. this is probably the worst ever game played by chong wei. lin dan maintained his usual greatness and confidence, with the additional advantage of the roaring home crowd of course.. but chong wei was obviously all nerves! he had a 50-50 chance to win the gold medal, like his coach-misbun said, he's got nuthin to lose(except mebbe 1 million ringgit?;)) .. but boy was that match crappy. no negaraku for us.. but at least we got a silver. chong wei still deserves a lotta credit for that. am watching the victory ceremony.. he looks really sad.. like he's been crying even. kesian. takpe chong wei. you still did good. malaysia got a silver thanks to you. we're still proud.
my brother texted me saying he was probably at fault too, cuz he had actually watched the game and therefore had probably jinxed it. he had apparently missed all events won by the malaysian shuttlers in the olympics so far, and those matches whose scores he managed to follow live online, were the ones we lost. oh, and the only time he did catch a glimpse of a live match on tv, it was when chong wei lost in the 2nd set against hyunil in the semis. so he was being a bit (silly &)superstitious tonight and didnt want to watch the game, but everyone else in malaysia were watching, including at the warung where he was having makan, so he just had to join in. hence the loss. hehe.
azizul hasni awang made it to the top 8 in the sprint event in cycling btw.. so malaysia still got hope.
the jamaican women just swept all 3 medals for the 100m race...with 1 gold and 2 silvers! no bronze even..they were dead even at 2nd place! and just yesterday, that usain bolt (very fitting last name) won another great gold medal for jamaica in the 100m men.
just realized too that the records (world & olympics) for the women's 100m made by the great flo-jo in 1988, still remain unbroken. wow.
another wow here...unsurpirising, but wow still.. is that human fish -michael phelps- he got his eight golds, just like he wanted. cool.
in tennis-the william sisters won their doubles gold, fedex had to settle for a doubles gold as well..and he seemed real happy with that, so that's good..and rafa continued his winning streak this year with his olympic gold.
looking forward to more finals ahead.
Friday, August 15, 2008
holy-olympics!
wow.. fedex and the williams sisters are out of the singles matches! talk about this being a bad year for federer. all three are still playing in the doubles matches tho.. but still, wow.
yay to choong wei and malaysia, for making it into the finals. the other semifinals are still playing at the moment, but looks to me choong wei will most probably face lin dan in the finals on sunday. so dunno.. we'll at least get the silver for sure, but getting gold will be super duper awesome for msia. come on choong wei, make us proud.. (if myr1 mil is not motivational enough for him, i dunno what is).
that penang guy-cheng whatshisname-almost made it to the semis in archery today.. dang!
athletics have also started today, looking forward to that, as well as synchronized swimming.
well, looks like my housemates will have to continue to bear with me for hogging the tv for these 2 weeks. hee...
yay to choong wei and malaysia, for making it into the finals. the other semifinals are still playing at the moment, but looks to me choong wei will most probably face lin dan in the finals on sunday. so dunno.. we'll at least get the silver for sure, but getting gold will be super duper awesome for msia. come on choong wei, make us proud.. (if myr1 mil is not motivational enough for him, i dunno what is).
that penang guy-cheng whatshisname-almost made it to the semis in archery today.. dang!
athletics have also started today, looking forward to that, as well as synchronized swimming.
well, looks like my housemates will have to continue to bear with me for hogging the tv for these 2 weeks. hee...
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
time well wasted
schize.. the malaysian doubles (KKK & TBH) are not looking too good at the moment.
saw the movie across the universe, musical based on the songs from the beatles. i loved it.. the songs are already great to begin with.. the story was also quite good.. the simple love story, the vietnam war, the songs, the actors.. cool. really took a liking to joe anderson, who totally looks like kurt cobain btw.
after watching this i immediately downloaded the soundtrack. nice.
also saw forgetting sarah marshall.. funny lah..worth mentioning that it shows male frontal nudity-instead of female for a change.... oh, and mila kunis is so pretty in this movie too.
lars and the real girl - interesting. liked it. ryan gosling is so cool. i prefer his acting in this one compared to half nelson.
half nelson - okay lah. biasa.
the bank job - liked it, especially because it was actually based on a real story. all that scandal. wow.
hairspray - not my kinda movie.
am playing with the idea of going to see susuk.. hmm..mebbe..
darn it..the boys lost the 1st set :(
saw the movie across the universe, musical based on the songs from the beatles. i loved it.. the songs are already great to begin with.. the story was also quite good.. the simple love story, the vietnam war, the songs, the actors.. cool. really took a liking to joe anderson, who totally looks like kurt cobain btw.
after watching this i immediately downloaded the soundtrack. nice.
also saw forgetting sarah marshall.. funny lah..worth mentioning that it shows male frontal nudity-instead of female for a change.... oh, and mila kunis is so pretty in this movie too.
lars and the real girl - interesting. liked it. ryan gosling is so cool. i prefer his acting in this one compared to half nelson.
half nelson - okay lah. biasa.
the bank job - liked it, especially because it was actually based on a real story. all that scandal. wow.
hairspray - not my kinda movie.
am playing with the idea of going to see susuk.. hmm..mebbe..
darn it..the boys lost the 1st set :(
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
apples and oranges comparing ringgit
Sunday August 10, 2008
Government docs want on-call allowance raised to overtime rate
By DEVID RAJAH and AUDREY EDWARDS
PETALING JAYA: Government doctors certainly have a lot to complain about, and they’re mostly to do with the much better perks offered by the private sector.
But this time, they are griping about their counterparts who do overtime at government health clinics. And it’s all about a vast discrepancy in the on-call allowance and overtime rate.
Doctors at government hospitals get a RM10 hourly on-call allowance, while those at government health clinics get RM80 for every hour’s overtime.
The hospital doctors say they have to attend to life threatening and emergency cases at casualty units, while the clinic doctors mostly only attend to patients complaining about coughs and colds.
Doctors at government hospitals have to perform on-call duty several times a month, and have called on the Health Ministry to standardise the payment rates.
“The RM10 hourly allowance for on-call doctors is grossly unfair,” said a senior doctor at a government hospital in the Klang Valley.
The doctor revealed that eight to 16 doctors were rostered for on-call duty in most large government hospitals.
”On the other hand, our counterparts at the health clinics are being paid RM80 hourly for treating patients with coughs and flu,” he said.
Other doctors, who spoke on condition of anonymity, said they preferred to serve at government health clinics which have extended operating hours to 9.30pm on weekdays, and from 8am to noon on Saturdays.
“We don’t have to work long hours and the workload is also not that heavy at health clinics,” said one doctor.
A 29-year-old doctor from Malacca said that with the current inflationary pressure, young doctors could hardly survive, especially if they were married with children.
The ministry reviewed the on-call allowance after two decades in 2005.
For weekdays, the on-call allowance was increased from RM75 to RM150 per day (calculated at the compulsory 15 hours of on-call duty which has to be performed daily), while such allowance on weekends was increased from RM113 to RM170.
The ministry started the overtime scheme at 16 government health clinics earlier this year for doctors who volunteered to work from 5pm to 9pm.
This means that a health clinic doctor who volunteers to work the four-hour period will earn RM320, compared with RM150 for a hospital doctor's 15 hours' work.
A specialist doctor cautioned that young doctors may be discouraged from serving in government hospitals if this issue was not resolved.
Health Minister Datuk Liow Tiong Lai explained that “overtime” and “on-call” were different, likening them to an apple and orange situation.
“Being on call is something that all government doctors have to do while working overtime is voluntary. You cannot compare working overtime with being on call,” he clarified.
He said the ministry was not considering raising the on-call rate but pledged to work on improving benefits for doctors to retain more of them in the public sector.
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what can i say? speechless sekejap..(kejap je)
okay..so apples and oranges are different..
like they mentioned in the paper there.. the apples work less hours, handle less life-threatening cases (even if they do, the plan would be-->refer to govt hospital anyway), oh, and can still get plenty of hours sleep after that, before going back to work again the next day if they have to .. AND they get paid more..
the oranges get longer hours, see more ill cases, get less hours of sleep (if we're lucky) and then still gotta continue work the next day if it's a working day.. and get paid less..
urm.. clarify again?
nuthin against the apples at all, cuz apples and oranges need each other, and should work side-by-side for the sake of the patients..
it's the big durian kahunas who dont seem to get it! yeah, okay....pledge away. *eyeroll*
ps: i wonder who that 29 year-old doctor from melaka is.. i know many who fit into that lil description ;)
pps: no...it's not moi.. was already 29 a few years ago...heh.
Monday, August 11, 2008
a lovely weekend..lovely lovely
friday nite-caught the beijing olympics opening live. a friend at work commented that half of the people in china were probably involved in the huge spectacular event. well, more than half was involved i think, probably leaving just enough for the rest to be the athletes themselves.
and the fireworks! smokin...literally...i wonder if the haze got worse after that? ;)
and twas cool seeing some of the more well-known athletes taking part in the march.. the great fed-ex, rafa (he's so cute when he smiles), kobe bryant, the williams sisters, etc..
saturday-went back to kl for a picnic potluck with a few gals from one of my old schools-mrsm taiping. it was great.. everyone havent changed much. there were the usual issues: work, politics, religion, men, gossips, sex (oh yeah)...but with most already being mothers now, it was interesting when the discussion also included issues like school fees, smart reader schools, and which laundry detergent is the best to get rid of those stubborn stains on your kids' clothes! those of us who are still child-free should have taken notes! (but none of us did, not about the detergent anyway..the sex talk was waaaaaayy more informative ;))
the venue was at the cyberjaya lake, which was nice, not crowded at all, and lots of shady areas. the only problem, which i thought was actually quite major, was the toilet facilities. the one by the car park was dirty and had no water, and the other nearest facility was at the clubhouse, supposedly only accessible to members, but we crashed in anyway. when you had to go, you had to go eh.saturday nite-went to klia to send another friend off to japan. she's married with 4 kids, and yet is crazy enough to further her studies to get her phd. "kau betul ke tak betul ni yat?"
sunday-went down south to see another old friend, who had her 2nd baby a couple of months ago(he's a handsome baby, and they got him such a cool name!).
the handsome amir ryu a.k.a the dragon prince. move over, knox leon!the other best part of the trip is of course, the fruits-mainly rambutans and mangosteens. yum yum!
by sunday nite, i was bushed... slept earlier than usual (after catching up the olympics highlights 'course).. but yeah, it was a lovely weekend indeed.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
here kitty kitty..
a rather relaxing weekend for me. i do have a list of things that should be done before monday, and i'll get to them (i hope!).. all while also catsitting for a friend. POSH is just the cutest lil kitten .. i'm totally in luv with her, and having these strong needs to have a cat of my own again.
sigh..
Sunday, July 20, 2008
chris nolan rocks!
yup.. kudos to this brilliant director and his team for (finally) doing justice to batman. i mean, batman begins was already sorta-heading-that-way..but not-really-there-yet, but the dark knight is just "yes! yes!that's it!"..how it was really supposed to be (or at least in our minds, it should be) ... and this isnt just because i'm a fan of the comics, but people i know who've never read the comics think the same too.
simply put: i absolutely loved this movie!
christian bale was cool.
and heath ledger was super-duper awesome. what a loss.
a bug is buggin..
arrghh..what is it about me that i attract weird psychos into my life?
just when it seems that i've finally gotten rid of one big bug after so many years of trying to get away from him (and his family)...(and not counting the few one-timers who calls me on the phone)..
there's now another one buzzing me evrytime i get online.
i ignored him of course, but didnt delete him right away cuz initally, (ok, i admit it)reading his stalking emails and offline messages sorta amused me in a way that makes me feel relatively normal... that though i've been called "weird" a few times, i'm still not THAT weird (haha..takes one to know one.. yeah i know).. but at least i'm not psychotic.
so yeah, tho it seems that i do attract them (like the bug-glue-thingy in the picture i took few weeks ago when out at dinner).. i really dont do psychos.
malas ah.
penat.
ps: the term psycho that is often used in this blog has the term defined personally by the writer, and only very loosely follows the DSM criteria.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
hello, this is stoopid psycho calling...
some people cant stand letting the phone ring again and again without picking it up. i for one, am totally okay with that.. if i really dont feel like picking up a call, i wont. although, having said that, i agree that if you're in public or there are other people around, you should pick up the phone or at least shut it off or disconnect it if you really dont wanna answer the call for whatever reason, just so you dont annoy the people around you (especially if you've got one of them annoying ringing tones going off at maximum volume on your cell).
with caller ids now available on regular phones and cellphones, it's easy to see who's calling ya. the calls that i dont like taking are actually from unrecognized numbers.. most times it's the credit card company, other times it's just a wrong number, and then there are those calls from total (psycho)strangers who happen to get my no from someone.
me: how'd you get my number?
psycho: adalah...
me: tell me lah..
psycho: adalah...orang bagi..
me: who?
psycho: adalah...
me: what do you want?
psycho: saja nak borak..
me: why?
psycho: saja..
me: but i dont know you..
psycho: that's ok... bolehla kita kenal2....
me: ok.. tell me who you are first lah..
psycho: tak payah la tau..
me: huh? habih nak borak apa?
psycho: apa-apalah.. u nak borak apa?
and this is when i usually hang up the phone.
holey-gibbers..dah la psycho, bodoh pulak tu.. i'd rather waste my time doing sth else thanx.
so that's why i usually dont take unrecognized numbers. if they are actually calls from people that i actually know, then they should and usually will text me and lemme know who they are and i'll just call them back, no problem ;)
with caller ids now available on regular phones and cellphones, it's easy to see who's calling ya. the calls that i dont like taking are actually from unrecognized numbers.. most times it's the credit card company, other times it's just a wrong number, and then there are those calls from total (psycho)strangers who happen to get my no from someone.
me: how'd you get my number?
psycho: adalah...
me: tell me lah..
psycho: adalah...orang bagi..
me: who?
psycho: adalah...
me: what do you want?
psycho: saja nak borak..
me: why?
psycho: saja..
me: but i dont know you..
psycho: that's ok... bolehla kita kenal2....
me: ok.. tell me who you are first lah..
psycho: tak payah la tau..
me: huh? habih nak borak apa?
psycho: apa-apalah.. u nak borak apa?
and this is when i usually hang up the phone.
holey-gibbers..dah la psycho, bodoh pulak tu.. i'd rather waste my time doing sth else thanx.
so that's why i usually dont take unrecognized numbers. if they are actually calls from people that i actually know, then they should and usually will text me and lemme know who they are and i'll just call them back, no problem ;)
Saturday, July 12, 2008
in the news
Thursday July 10, 2008
but everyday at work seems like we're heading towards that direction. parents claiming we're treating their ill kids as pincushion la, experiment la, .. asyik cucuk saja ambik darah..
hya..if there is any other way for us to take blood from your children, less invasively, like picit kuku and darah terus keluar dari hidung ke.. or press the nose and blood comes out of the bellybutton ke.. dont u think we would take blood that way?
do you think we would just go to the ward at 3am in the morning, and since there's nuthin else to do, we play "let's prick the children and drain their blood away" for fun?
contrary to some beliefs.. we dont drink children's blood.. nor do we find anything useful to do with their urine or feces either, that we would ask you for the samples, or on occasions we ourselves have to stick a tube up their urethra (a.k.a the pee-hole), other than to have them sent to the labs so we could try and figure out why the heck is your child so sick, and try our best to make them better, cuz umm... isnt it why you brought them to us in the 1st place?
this may not have any medical explainations to it.. but from the (still very)limited experience of working with sick kids and babies for >6 years now, i find that babies whose parents are so calm, understanding, supportive and most of all very cooperative with us while we're treating their child.. these kids turnout well, despite our so-called medical opinion that they were so ill that they may not make it through..these are the kids who not only survive..they survive well, and grow healthily & beautifully.. passing way beyond all of our previous grave expectations.
but those babies whose parents are so inconsiderate, rude, accusing, overly paranoid etc (basically plain bad lah).. their babies seem to just give up on life.. even if their illness are not that serious, in our so-called medical opinion "should be okay one"... these are the kids that decide to turn for the worse..
sigh...
we remind ourselves..at least i make sure i do... to treat the patients..not the parents.. it's not the babies' fault that he/she were born to rude, stoopid moronic parents.
contrary to popular beliefs, doctors are humans.. with feelings.. we too feel sad, depressed even sometimes, when we couldnt save a child. how can people accuse us of "saja2 biar budak mati" is just beyond me.
i dont normally cry in front of parents when i deliver them the bad news, however sad i was feeling at the time... but i remember on one occasion not that long ago, after telling a couple that their child had died (after staying with us for a longtime in the NICU), they both nodded sadly, there was a pause, i stayed with them all ready to console them, my hand on the mom's shoulders.. then both of them surprised me by saying "thank you doctor, we know you have tried your best, and we appreciate everything that you and your team-the doctors, nurses, have done for our baby. only God can pay you all in return"
and there was no stopping the tears that rolled down my cheeks..
Doctors' strike shuts hospitals throughout Nepal
KATMANDU, Nepal (AP) - Striking doctors in Nepal shut down all the hospitals and clinics in the Himalayan nation Thursday, demanding better government protection against attacks by angry relatives of patients who have died.
Doctors had shut down hospitals in the capital, Katmandu, on Wednesday and expanded the strike to the rest of the country on Thursday.
Emergency services remained open.
Doctors groups say there have been several incidents over the past year in which people attacked or threatened hospitals and doctors over allegations of negligence in their relatives' deaths.
Dr. Kedar Narsingh of the Nepal Medical Association said the strike would continue until the government responds to their demands.
"The government has not even bothered to call us for talks and has not taken us seriously,'' he said.
"We will continue our protest until the government responds positively.''
In the latest incident, the family of a patient who died after kidney surgery threatened doctors at a hospital in Katmandu over the weekend.
Narsingh said the government had promised better security at hospitals two years ago after a similar incident led to a doctors' strike, but little has been done.
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what is the world coming to?
pray that malaysians takkan la sampai macam tu sekali..but everyday at work seems like we're heading towards that direction. parents claiming we're treating their ill kids as pincushion la, experiment la, .. asyik cucuk saja ambik darah..
hya..if there is any other way for us to take blood from your children, less invasively, like picit kuku and darah terus keluar dari hidung ke.. or press the nose and blood comes out of the bellybutton ke.. dont u think we would take blood that way?
do you think we would just go to the ward at 3am in the morning, and since there's nuthin else to do, we play "let's prick the children and drain their blood away" for fun?
contrary to some beliefs.. we dont drink children's blood.. nor do we find anything useful to do with their urine or feces either, that we would ask you for the samples, or on occasions we ourselves have to stick a tube up their urethra (a.k.a the pee-hole), other than to have them sent to the labs so we could try and figure out why the heck is your child so sick, and try our best to make them better, cuz umm... isnt it why you brought them to us in the 1st place?
this may not have any medical explainations to it.. but from the (still very)limited experience of working with sick kids and babies for >6 years now, i find that babies whose parents are so calm, understanding, supportive and most of all very cooperative with us while we're treating their child.. these kids turnout well, despite our so-called medical opinion that they were so ill that they may not make it through..these are the kids who not only survive..they survive well, and grow healthily & beautifully.. passing way beyond all of our previous grave expectations.
but those babies whose parents are so inconsiderate, rude, accusing, overly paranoid etc (basically plain bad lah).. their babies seem to just give up on life.. even if their illness are not that serious, in our so-called medical opinion "should be okay one"... these are the kids that decide to turn for the worse..
sigh...
we remind ourselves..at least i make sure i do... to treat the patients..not the parents.. it's not the babies' fault that he/she were born to rude, stoopid moronic parents.
contrary to popular beliefs, doctors are humans.. with feelings.. we too feel sad, depressed even sometimes, when we couldnt save a child. how can people accuse us of "saja2 biar budak mati" is just beyond me.
i dont normally cry in front of parents when i deliver them the bad news, however sad i was feeling at the time... but i remember on one occasion not that long ago, after telling a couple that their child had died (after staying with us for a longtime in the NICU), they both nodded sadly, there was a pause, i stayed with them all ready to console them, my hand on the mom's shoulders.. then both of them surprised me by saying "thank you doctor, we know you have tried your best, and we appreciate everything that you and your team-the doctors, nurses, have done for our baby. only God can pay you all in return"
and there was no stopping the tears that rolled down my cheeks..
Thursday, July 10, 2008
"so emie, apa cerita?"
i dont really like it when people ask me this.
the question usually comes from friends/relatives who havent seen me for a while. (it usually comes after: "hey.. u've gained weight yah?" or "hmm.. kau dah gemuk nampak?")--> but that's for another blog, another time.
why dont i like it is simply cuz i i felt like i dont really have much to cerita .. my job's the same, the place i work's still the same, my car's still the same, my health's the same, my status is the same (status quo).
so yeah.. the only thing that's changed is actually my weight, but like i said, this is the 1st thing they would notice anyway.
so i would usually say "oh, same ol same ol..u know"..and would then proceed to cerita about other things, or other people...altho when i think about it again later, i actually do have my own cerita i can cerita, but being caught off guard most of the time kan.. the cerita just got lost i guess. hee. whatever.
so here's my cerita for today..after like ?2 months of not blogging, more like a catching-up lah kot:
forfar,nelson,here i come (again)
it's back to the books again for me. sigh.boringnye......next!
wimbledon
it has been a really interesting year in tennis so far.
rafa beat fedex to the british cup this year,preventing the fed a 6-yr streak at wimbledon, and possibly sending the guy to a depth of depression (hope not!) for making him lose another grand slam title this year!
the williams sisters made it to the finals again, with venus bringing home the trophy.
the M word
quite a number of friends got busy sending off wedding invitations this year. interestingly, few are actually doing it for the 2nd time already (!) so apparently the question they pose nowadays is this: "so emie, when are you gonna get married hah? so&so already twice now..haha...ha...ha"
sheesh *eyeroll*
the D word
quite a number of people i know are/have gotten divorced as well. seems there are soooo many diverse reasons behind the divorces nowadays. i dont think there are any actual risk factors to getting them anymore. the couple could be living together/living apart, no children/got children, great in-laws/crazy in-laws/even no in-laws, age difference/no age difference, love marriage/arranged marriage, fidelity/infidelity, married young/married late, good sex/bad sex/no sex, just married/golden anniversary,...and the list goes on...
well i guess there is one definite risk factor for getting a divorce then--> getting married!
the good ol days
attended my old boarding school's 25th anniversary. was fun. very nostalgic.
work frustations
the LJ,the shameless fabricator,the stoopidos,the red tape,the pointing fingers,the illness,the deaths,the feeling of helplessness.
euro o euro
france and italy didnt make it very far. but germany got to the finals tho they didnt win. but hey, they beat portugal- muahaha.
f1
kimi, massa, & hamilton are head-to-head at the standings, with kubica running (or driving rather ;)) really close behind. now that's what i call a race!
masters
no..not another sports tournament. rather the disastrous journey i decided to embark myself in order to (kononnye) get myself "specialized". sheessh. what was i thinking? i dont think i give a damn anymore.bah! i'm too damn lazy for it all already.
happy hair
yup. new hairstyle. splurged a bit on it. but not sorry that i did ;)
current reading
other than paeds lit? the book thief and two caravans.
movies
hancock- predictable
ironman-loved it!
wanted-uuhhmmm....mixed feelings about this one
13 games (thai movie)-gross.loved it.but gross.really.
kungfu panda-fairly enjoyable. the animated kungfu moves are kung-fu-fun.heh.
travel
NONE.
arrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
the question usually comes from friends/relatives who havent seen me for a while. (it usually comes after: "hey.. u've gained weight yah?" or "hmm.. kau dah gemuk nampak?")--> but that's for another blog, another time.
why dont i like it is simply cuz i i felt like i dont really have much to cerita .. my job's the same, the place i work's still the same, my car's still the same, my health's the same, my status is the same (status quo).
so yeah.. the only thing that's changed is actually my weight, but like i said, this is the 1st thing they would notice anyway.
so i would usually say "oh, same ol same ol..u know"..and would then proceed to cerita about other things, or other people...altho when i think about it again later, i actually do have my own cerita i can cerita, but being caught off guard most of the time kan.. the cerita just got lost i guess. hee. whatever.
so here's my cerita for today..after like ?2 months of not blogging, more like a catching-up lah kot:
forfar,nelson,here i come (again)
it's back to the books again for me. sigh.boringnye......next!
wimbledon
it has been a really interesting year in tennis so far.
rafa beat fedex to the british cup this year,preventing the fed a 6-yr streak at wimbledon, and possibly sending the guy to a depth of depression (hope not!) for making him lose another grand slam title this year!
the williams sisters made it to the finals again, with venus bringing home the trophy.
the M word
quite a number of friends got busy sending off wedding invitations this year. interestingly, few are actually doing it for the 2nd time already (!) so apparently the question they pose nowadays is this: "so emie, when are you gonna get married hah? so&so already twice now..haha...ha...ha"
sheesh *eyeroll*
the D word
quite a number of people i know are/have gotten divorced as well. seems there are soooo many diverse reasons behind the divorces nowadays. i dont think there are any actual risk factors to getting them anymore. the couple could be living together/living apart, no children/got children, great in-laws/crazy in-laws/even no in-laws, age difference/no age difference, love marriage/arranged marriage, fidelity/infidelity, married young/married late, good sex/bad sex/no sex, just married/golden anniversary,...and the list goes on...
well i guess there is one definite risk factor for getting a divorce then--> getting married!
the good ol days
attended my old boarding school's 25th anniversary. was fun. very nostalgic.
work frustations
the LJ,the shameless fabricator,the stoopidos,the red tape,the pointing fingers,the illness,the deaths,the feeling of helplessness.
euro o euro
france and italy didnt make it very far. but germany got to the finals tho they didnt win. but hey, they beat portugal- muahaha.
f1
kimi, massa, & hamilton are head-to-head at the standings, with kubica running (or driving rather ;)) really close behind. now that's what i call a race!
masters
no..not another sports tournament. rather the disastrous journey i decided to embark myself in order to (kononnye) get myself "specialized". sheessh. what was i thinking? i dont think i give a damn anymore.bah! i'm too damn lazy for it all already.
happy hair
yup. new hairstyle. splurged a bit on it. but not sorry that i did ;)
current reading
other than paeds lit? the book thief and two caravans.
movies
hancock- predictable
ironman-loved it!
wanted-uuhhmmm....mixed feelings about this one
13 games (thai movie)-gross.loved it.but gross.really.
kungfu panda-fairly enjoyable. the animated kungfu moves are kung-fu-fun.heh.
travel
NONE.
arrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
Monday, May 19, 2008
post-exam diary
thomas cup... sigh..not ours again.
nadal vs federer - masters hamburg series final.
triple championship points...
and nadal, the great prince on clay, wins again.
chelsea vs man u in the championship league final next week. go chelsea!
david vs david on american idol finale next week. go cook! *drool*
f1 monaco next sunday. go kimi!
back in kl again yesterday. dad's 60th birthday. he was not in the mood to celebrate though.
an old friend got married.. went to the wedding.
followed by 2 movies at the cinema..
what happens in vegas : predictable storyline, but quite funny. diaz and kutcher are awesome!
narnia 2: bo-ring.
catching up on csi vegas season 8. 7 episodes down.
nujum pak belalang playing on astro: beringin rendang vs masai, lawan tekateki. i enjoy pramlee's funnies.
oncall tomorrow.
exam was over 4 days ago. it was baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.
if i successfully fail as predicted, then another exam will haunt me end of the year.
sigh.
malas to cry already.
i'll just go to plan b, or c..
and life goes on.
nadal vs federer - masters hamburg series final.
triple championship points...
and nadal, the great prince on clay, wins again.
chelsea vs man u in the championship league final next week. go chelsea!
david vs david on american idol finale next week. go cook! *drool*
f1 monaco next sunday. go kimi!
back in kl again yesterday. dad's 60th birthday. he was not in the mood to celebrate though.
an old friend got married.. went to the wedding.
followed by 2 movies at the cinema..
what happens in vegas : predictable storyline, but quite funny. diaz and kutcher are awesome!
narnia 2: bo-ring.
catching up on csi vegas season 8. 7 episodes down.
nujum pak belalang playing on astro: beringin rendang vs masai, lawan tekateki. i enjoy pramlee's funnies.
oncall tomorrow.
exam was over 4 days ago. it was baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.
if i successfully fail as predicted, then another exam will haunt me end of the year.
sigh.
malas to cry already.
i'll just go to plan b, or c..
and life goes on.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
my current life soundtrack
-TRUTH by Seether-
If I gave you the truth, would it keep you alive?
Though I'm closer to wrong
I'm no further from right
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convinced on the inside, you're so much more than me, yeah
No there's nothing you say that can salvage the lie
But I'm trying to keep my intentions disguised
And now I'm deprived of my conscience and something's got to give
Deprived of my conscience
This all belongs to me, yeah
I'm beaten down again, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
I'm weaker now my friend, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
The deception you show is your own parasite
Just a word of advice you can heed if you like
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convincd on the inside you're so much more than me, yeah
I'm beaten down
If I gave you the truth, would it keep you alive?
Though I'm closer to wrong
I'm no further from right
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convinced on the inside, you're so much more than me, yeah
No there's nothing you say that can salvage the lie
But I'm trying to keep my intentions disguised
And now I'm deprived of my conscience and something's got to give
Deprived of my conscience
This all belongs to me, yeah
I'm beaten down again, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
I'm weaker now my friend, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
The deception you show is your own parasite
Just a word of advice you can heed if you like
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convincd on the inside you're so much more than me, yeah
I'm beaten down
Sunday, April 27, 2008
it's one of those days.....
i have demons.inside me.
outside.
the ones inside me are clawing through to get out, show their faces to the world.
the ones outside are penetrating their way into my mind..my body..my soul.
and there's helpless old me in between.
trying desperately to fight them off.
i cant let them get to me.. then i'll become their slave..and be lost forever.
no turning back.
it's been a looooooooooooooooong losing battle.
and it's wearing me out.
battered.
injured.
too damn tired.
dont know how long i can hold on.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
an incident at the mall
this happened to me a few weeks ago. my friend mawa and me went to the local mall and was on our down the underground parking. there was already a line there cuz it was raining heavily so most people wanted to park underground and not have to get wet getting out of the car.
oh..and this is not a story about another flooded underground parking either ;)
as we were waiting in line, this huge ford ranger truck from nowhere suddenly made its way into the line about 2-3 cars in front of us. mawar and me just shook our heads and grumbled to each other.. esp seeing that it looked like a family in that truck..there was young kid around 4-5 yrs old in there, observing all this probably thinking "o.. this is how u get evrywhere in life.. just cut in infront of evryone else!"
anyway..as we finally came up to the ticketing machine as the car in front of us went pass the entrance bar.. we saw the truck again.. parked just after the entrance bar, and the driver was waiting at the ticket machine.. and before i could brake the car and open my windows.. he pressed the button, and took OUR ticket!.. and went back to his truck!!!
the bar lifted, but of course we couldnt just drive thru cuz we dont have a ticket anymore..and that will cause problems later when we wanna leave..cuz um... we wont have a bloody ticket!
so i called out to the guy, who didnt even bother driving off in his truck right away, he was actually talking on his phone.. and i called out to him again.. "encik.. why did u take my ticket?"..
and he said" somebody took my ticket..so i take yours lah"
so i asked again " but how am i supposed to go in now i dont have a ticket anymore?"
and he just shrugged his shoulders at me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i turned to mawa, who was already feverishly taking down his car number (johor number btw), and then i turned to look at the long line of cars behind me, most of them probably not realizing what was the delay all about.. and i just drove through..and through..
we didnt even park down there.. we went straight up again and parked right at the main entrance (like i said, it was raining crazy heavily, so there were lots of paking spaces up there).. ...we were so angry... i was holding my breath cuz the hugest list of profanities were ready to eascape my mouth (and nose) ... i was that angry..
and we marched straight to the guards "in-charge" of the mall, ready to report the dumb brute.
but an interesting thing happened instead:
mawa and me started telling the guard lady at the counter about what happened.
we even gave her the car regisration number.
she listened and nodded, and started writing down the number.
then she said: so apa perasan adik bila dia buat macam ni?
mawa and me didnt quite expect this, so i asked her again.. cuz i thought i probably didnt hear her (there was also this mini-concert show going on right in the middle of the mall, just behind the counter where we were)
so she said again: apa perasan adik bila orang tu buat macam tu?
i turned to mawa and from her face i guess she heard the question too, so i answered: err... marah lah..
i suddenly had this sudden flash of vision that we were probably caught in some crazy "candid camera" show or sth.. and that the guard lady was gonna say "gotcha!!!!"
but instead she said: ok..so adik marah..maknanye adik faham la ye... perbuatan macam tu adalah satu kesalahan..
and she gave us a new parking ticket so we can get out later okay..
we thanked her quietly and walked away frowning. we just had a "moral education" given to us by that lady..?
realizing that, we both couldnt help laughing.. she probably felt that it was her responsibilty to teach us "youngins" about some good moral values. she didnt look that much older than us actually..but WE probably looked a lot younger.. haha.. that made us felt much better..
but in our hearts we still cursed that stupid jerk and his stupid ford ranger.
oh..and this is not a story about another flooded underground parking either ;)
as we were waiting in line, this huge ford ranger truck from nowhere suddenly made its way into the line about 2-3 cars in front of us. mawar and me just shook our heads and grumbled to each other.. esp seeing that it looked like a family in that truck..there was young kid around 4-5 yrs old in there, observing all this probably thinking "o.. this is how u get evrywhere in life.. just cut in infront of evryone else!"
anyway..as we finally came up to the ticketing machine as the car in front of us went pass the entrance bar.. we saw the truck again.. parked just after the entrance bar, and the driver was waiting at the ticket machine.. and before i could brake the car and open my windows.. he pressed the button, and took OUR ticket!.. and went back to his truck!!!
the bar lifted, but of course we couldnt just drive thru cuz we dont have a ticket anymore..and that will cause problems later when we wanna leave..cuz um... we wont have a bloody ticket!
so i called out to the guy, who didnt even bother driving off in his truck right away, he was actually talking on his phone.. and i called out to him again.. "encik.. why did u take my ticket?"..
and he said" somebody took my ticket..so i take yours lah"
so i asked again " but how am i supposed to go in now i dont have a ticket anymore?"
and he just shrugged his shoulders at me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i turned to mawa, who was already feverishly taking down his car number (johor number btw), and then i turned to look at the long line of cars behind me, most of them probably not realizing what was the delay all about.. and i just drove through..and through..
we didnt even park down there.. we went straight up again and parked right at the main entrance (like i said, it was raining crazy heavily, so there were lots of paking spaces up there).. ...we were so angry... i was holding my breath cuz the hugest list of profanities were ready to eascape my mouth (and nose) ... i was that angry..
and we marched straight to the guards "in-charge" of the mall, ready to report the dumb brute.
but an interesting thing happened instead:
mawa and me started telling the guard lady at the counter about what happened.
we even gave her the car regisration number.
she listened and nodded, and started writing down the number.
then she said: so apa perasan adik bila dia buat macam ni?
mawa and me didnt quite expect this, so i asked her again.. cuz i thought i probably didnt hear her (there was also this mini-concert show going on right in the middle of the mall, just behind the counter where we were)
so she said again: apa perasan adik bila orang tu buat macam tu?
i turned to mawa and from her face i guess she heard the question too, so i answered: err... marah lah..
i suddenly had this sudden flash of vision that we were probably caught in some crazy "candid camera" show or sth.. and that the guard lady was gonna say "gotcha!!!!"
but instead she said: ok..so adik marah..maknanye adik faham la ye... perbuatan macam tu adalah satu kesalahan..
and she gave us a new parking ticket so we can get out later okay..
we thanked her quietly and walked away frowning. we just had a "moral education" given to us by that lady..?
realizing that, we both couldnt help laughing.. she probably felt that it was her responsibilty to teach us "youngins" about some good moral values. she didnt look that much older than us actually..but WE probably looked a lot younger.. haha.. that made us felt much better..
but in our hearts we still cursed that stupid jerk and his stupid ford ranger.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
david cook & billy jean
omg...that david cook is just amazing, the way he sang billy jean like he did.. awesome!!
am so in luv with him!!
also have this teen crush on jason castro.. but he didnt do too well last night i think.
anyway, i agree with what they've been saying that this year's american idol contestants are among the best so far.. esp the guys..i guess that's why this season i've been following the show since hollywood week.... (usually i'd start watching much later...like when they reach top 6 or sth).
cool.. cant wait to see who wins!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
kidz
these are just a few of my collection of photos of kids in action. they're just adorable!
how can some people stand to hurt/abuse them, i can never understand.
always let a kid be a kid...(i guess easy for me to say, cuz none of them are my own.. once they poop or throw a tantrum.. i hand them back to their moms..heee..)
Monday, March 17, 2008
great yongtaufoo in melaka
http://www.bharian.com.my/Current_News/BH/Saturday/Ikon/20080315130816/Article/
the restaurant featured in berita harian 2 days ago actually belongs to my cousin's hubby. memang yong tau foo dia sedap. about time his place got featured. typical rosli tho..didnt want his photo taken.
anyway, i tumpang bangga la..
hehe..
the restaurant featured in berita harian 2 days ago actually belongs to my cousin's hubby. memang yong tau foo dia sedap. about time his place got featured. typical rosli tho..didnt want his photo taken.
anyway, i tumpang bangga la..
hehe..
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