Sunday, November 08, 2009

to be or not to be..........

i just realized that i only get about4-5 days off in a month now.
i leave for work at 7am, and most of the time reach back home at 7pm.
in between that i've to be oncall.

i've been told that i've lost a bit of weight.
i'm losing much more hair.
my skin's getting worse.

2 months ago i was really depressed and was real close to quitting masters. to my horror and surprise, i no longer had the passion to do paeds anymore...and that made me real sad.
but after much praying and soul searching (if i could call it that)and actually looking at other jobs/options in medicine, i decided to stay..for now. i've to admit that i still like paeds, but i'm not sure if i have the passion for it anymore.
i still have that feeling (of quitting) from time to time, but it's not as strong as it used to be. i can honestly say right now that if i was actually sitting for the exams right now and failed.. i would totally be okay with it..
so *sigh* we'll see.
i'm taking it a day at a time.